i don’t have a great deal of time at the moment to explore the furtherings of thought in my last post, but i just adore dwelling on this basic principle:
Jesus did not use His power as God while on earth-He operated as man under the anointing. that’s the point. that’s why we get the privilege of doing the same…and more. in the depths of His humility, He refused to use His power except as one operating in the Spirit…oh, how my heart delights in that!
first of all i need to give credit to Lance Wallnau for prompting my heart to search this deeply—the Lord had been speaking to me about what it is to co-labour and everywhere i turned was stale and seemingly false…
let me continue…proof of God giving man these aforementioned capacities to create etc…
Genesis 2:19
19 Out of the ground the LORD God formed every beast of the field and every bird of the air, and brought them to Adam to see what he would call them. And whatever Adam called each living creature, that was its name. 20 So Adam gave names to all cattle, to the birds of the air, and to every beast of the field.
skip with me to John 1:41
1The first thing Andrew did was to find his brother Simon and tell him, “We have found the Messiah” (that is, the Christ). 42And he brought him to Jesus. Jesus looked at him and said, “You are Simon son of John. You will be called Cephas” (which, when translated, is Peter)
how often have we all discussed the significance of a name? the Living God, Christ Jesus knew that a name-speaking to someone a new name-places in them a new dimension of who they are-there is something beyond character here-just as Adam spoke elements into each animal as he named them—a new dimension of their personality is given…that is how God creates…and yet He allowed us to do the same before the dominion was lifted when Adam fell—BUT Jesus restored it to us when we again became new creations…
okay-off to work!
“if there’s no power in the church, take the sign off the door!”
–bill johnson
that goes for the capital C Church and the small c church…and each of us as individuals-as the Temple of the Holy Ghost.
let’s all get over ourselves. let’s quit regurgitating what doctrine we’ve crammed in our brains and sustained ourselves upon…while we’re dead on the inside-choking and gasping for air—if your theology isn’t lining up with your life-well then, “Heaven, we have a problem…”
WRONG ASSUMPTION A: God’s perfect Will works like this–He comes alongside you and tells you what it is clearly if you do X, Y and Z…or if you stand about waiting and travailing hours in prayer and fasting, or not doing ANYTHING because, “oh well, if it’s not the Lord’s Will we should all wait…” or blah blah blah
PROBLEM: the Lord has NEVER spoken to me so clearly or many that i know -ever…or if He has i’ve been too broken and muddled to distinguish it.
SOLUTION: how about we line up TRUTH to what the Word says about God’s Will, instead of spitting out the same thing we’ve been taught over and over again—
1. We were made in God’s image…to co labour…point to be proven tomorrow after all of you go and read the first few chapters of Genesis-it is the premise for the whole thing you know…can’t be skipped over like la dee da-
…check back soon. i am going to write about thoughts revolving the inaccuracies of what we’ve been taught regarding the Will of God…and why we are, in fact, called to fulfill Kingdom Purposes now without all this excessive travail. this will be utterly repulsive to traditional liturgy…at least it was to mine- before i realized
how obvious it really is…
we were given the capacity to create-to dominate-and to cultivate, as God does.
come back soon!
okay, here’s the deal-
i’m certain we’re all quite aware of what’s pouring forth in Lakeland, FLA these days. michael and i have never felt so desperate to be somewhere in our lives. we’re not merely fascinated with the charismatic rhetoric or the miracles themselves-we are fascinated with Christ’s presence in the midst of them-moving as only He can, in love and absolute compassion for His children-for His bride. i have been praying for weeks and weeks before this that i would carry God’s glory…His love, and be motivated only therein. and here before us lies the opportunity to expedite the process, and gather ourselves in the midst of something phenomenal, in which His beloved church is being given the opportunity.
this is why, i desire to go. i desire to bring revival and pour it like waterfalls of oil through Over the Rhine…to release it in authority to the churches…yes, of course i desire to be healed, but that is becoming so secondary.
i’m frustrated with our inability to go, and even further so with the response of the saints—“well, if you’re supposed to go a check will show up in your mailbox or blah blah blah…” ENOUGH! sometimes God is waiting for you to make a move-He has never partnered with us in that specific way, and i’m not saying He wouldn’t now, i’m saying things work differently for many of us. He wants to give us the desires of our heart—Yes, He placed them there, but sometimes He wants to rule beside you and see what you do. this is why He told Adam to name the animals- this is why it was in David’s heart to build the Temple, and God said-“hey great idea, not what i had in mind, but you have my heart, it’s a great idea-i’ll do what you say but through your son, i have my reasons”…
we need to start to take the steps. we need to stop constantly checking and rechecking whether we’re in the Will of God in THIS way-not all ways. if what you want to do is righteous, and for His glory-get your butts moving! i’m tired of merely stumbling into the will of God- i want to see healings-more than anything i desire to see mental retardation and autism, particularly in children, be complete dissolved in the Lord’s love—i desire to love with the deepest of Christ’s love…think of how paul said that God would testify how he longed for them (the church) with the love of Christ. OH! that is my desire!
and no, i certainly don’t have to go to FLA to receive this anointing in my lifetime…i need merely put my feet to it as i have set my heart. i, however, believe, there is something tangible there, to confirm and console a wearied spirit who has been told she “can’t” for too long.
i’m coming Lord. i don’t know how or when, but i’m coming. you don not give stones when your children ask for eggs-you desire as i desire. you alone make me righteous.
—END RANT
A young man said to (whomever), “I’d give the world to be able to teach the Bible like you.” Looking him straight in the eye, Dr. (whomever) replied: “Good, because that’s exactly what it will cost you.”
The pastor whom the young man is referencing is irrelevant at the moment…it was just the deep of the idea itself that remained significant to me.
for those of you who live under a rock…where actually the Blues should be prevalent, but maybe aren’t for you…this wonderful and sweet as can be fellow passed away this week, and i am elated to think he may be chilling with my pops and Hendrix. he will be missed tremendously-he marked a generation of music that cannot be forgotten!
In lieu of flowers; the family has asked to please make donations to the Jazz Foundation of America specifically in Buddy Miles’ name to assist with funeral, and other expenses at http://www.jazzfoundation.org ; The Jazz Foundation of America, at 322 West 48th Street, New York, NY, 10036, Attn.: Amy Cusma.
okay, a lot…
The epitome of American cultural worship can be found here…
seriously, dude. seriously. yuck.
“You won’t relent until you have it all, my heart is yours…”
i know most of us have heard this song rotating heavily through our misty edwards sessions of prayer and devotion unto the Lord. you know we all do it… we cling to her music because it is so tangible and simultaneously ethereal, and sensitive to the Holy Spirit… it is delight.
but while i ponder on this thought, “You won’t relent, until you have it all, my heart is yours…” and the subsequent cry from Song of Solomon—“Set me as a seal upon your heart, as a seal upon your arm”—
i realized, the deepest desire of my heart to have both of those phrases in reciprocity (the first from the Lord, and second from my own lips as well as His). that the Lord would shine and say of me, that I, Jillian, will not relent until I have laid hold of Him…until i have laid hold of all the treasures of darkness-” I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name.” Isaiah 45:3 that was the specific calling He gave to me almost two years ago now. I’m a wee bit slower than i’d like sometimes…:)
these last few weeks have really begun to put into perspective the desire and truth in my future for Him. there is this deeply rooted and previously unseen part of me that has delighted in the simple math, that as we purge ourselves of things we do not need (and oh! we did this recently by releasing my beloved Scion to another, and are now driving a car that sounds like the Millenium Falcon with bronchitis !) we are blessed with humility, blessed with greater capacity to be smitten by the Holy One of Israel. suddenly as we are moving in these missionary arenas, nothing else matters…Love prevails. and i have been praying during this last fast that i would do nothing if it is not motivated in love—and it’s taking shape in me. i can feel the grip of the accuser of the brethren as he is tormented and striking back with all of his ammo, but it’s past irrelevant now. i think i’m making the decision—
that i will begin to pursue deeper the idea of full time missions. by May, we’re hoping to have clarity and to have had the Lord highlighted whom we are to partner with financially and prayerfully.
my wackiness may have found a true home in this city: C-HOP.
this is my little man! Mosje Monsieur Serieux. (Moses, Mister Serious). He is always very intent looking in the face, but is ohhhhh so squishy lovey!
JeSuS aNd I lIkE pIe 
